Is it weird to observe yourself from the side as you are fully engaged in life? May be so, but it has been by habit since i have been aware of myself, i think. So, after so many years of self-observation, i was quite used to the fact that i am always rational and introspective, and i came to accept that as my "default setting". Imagine my surprise as i was suddenly made aware that i have been a basket case lately. In the midst of a discussion following an argument, where i felt very much like a victim of his bad mood, C closely examined my behaviors and reactions for the past 4 days. I tried to refute his "evidence" at first, but then something "clicked", and i actually was able to look at myself objectively again. Omg, i have been a typical woman: i took issues with how he looked at me, or how he lacked enthusiasm, or how his voice sounded, got mad and just about attacked him on all those points. Since when is my mood dependent on his? Since when do i take his mood changes personally? When and how did i switch from comforting him when his mood changes to being mad at him for ruining my evening with his less-than-happy outlook? Not good, not good! But, it took C's patience to drive the point across, for which i am grateful. This is yet another building block for our happily-ever-after!